“Sovereign Commander of the Universe,
I am sadly harassed by doubts, fears, unbelief, in a felt spiritual darkness.
My heart is full of evil surmising and disquietude,
and I cannot act faith at all. My heavenly pilot
has disappeared, and I have lost my hold on the Rock of Ages;
I sink in deep mire beneath storms and waves,
in horror and distress unutterable. Help me, O Lord,
to throw myself absolutely and wholly on thee,
For better, for worse, without comfort, and all but helpless.
Give me peace of soul, confidence, enlargement of mind,
morning joy that comes after night heaviness;
Water my soul richly with divine blessings.
Give me a mountaintop as high as the valley is low.”
On June 19, 2011, Rob and I jumped out of a moving airplane . . . willingly.
We even paid $$ for the experience. For me, it was work. After seven years of studying and writing about trusting God, I needed to test my material.
One significant truth emerged as a result: a very big part of trusting God is learning to LEAN on God.
Proverbs 3:4-6 instructs,
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and LEAN NOT on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.”
A thousand times I heard the still small voice say, “Lean on me, Janell. I’ve got this.” So minutes before the leap of faith occurred, Jim, my professional jumper, kept repeating, “Lean back. Be sure to lean on me.” Right at that moment, all those years of teaching were sealed. The voice of God spoke and I felt greatly empowered to go forth and teach hundreds of women the truths in “Freefalling to Freedom: Take the Leap and Experience True Freedom in Christ.”
As you stand on the grand threshold of 2012, do you feel God nudging you to lean on Him? Leaning hints at resting, doesn’t it? Is there something you need to let God take care of? Take it from me. I was scared out of my mind, but when Jim pushed my head back on his shoulder and said, “Lean on me,” I did. I felt the voice of God behind it all. Push through the scared-out-of-your-mind feeling and lean back. Oh, it ends up feeling so freeing. Here’s to the freefall and the disorientation experienced the minute you decide to let go: